Let’s be honest, it just is. Whether as a rosy cheeked newbie starting school for the first time ever, an acne faced teenager entering the halls of high school, or indeed the (slightly) wrinkled face of the adult student going into tertiary study.
This. Shit. Is. Scary.
Perhaps as an insight to my opinion I should mention I’ve had more than my fair share of ‘first days’ at school. My single mother used to move us around a lot. In total I ended up at 12 different schools. 13 if you count this one (which I won’t, since I’ve just now made the link to the unlucky number 13….. I told you school was scary). I was enrolled in 8 Primary Schools, 2 Intermediates and 2 High Schools. That’s a whole lot of first days, lonely lunches and curriculum catch ups for one kid. I spent a lot of time on my own reading in the library which has served me well as an adult. I enjoy my own company, and I love reading. But as a kid it was tough. Always being the new girl. Going through the inevitable “stand up and tell us a little about yourself” from the teachers, and the standard heckling I got as the kid with freckles whose ears stuck out and who was unfortunate enough to also have the last name Curry (go ahead, believe me I’ve heard all the jokes).
Why then as a fully autonomous 35 year old married adult would I willingly put myself through that again? Walking into yet another educational facility, with a whole bunch of new people, and in a new town no less? Am I nuts?? Short answer, yes. I am completely bat shit. And I am not talking about my major depressive disorder, my mild Agoraphobia or my multiple anxiety disorders. I am talking about passion. I am bat shit passionate about being an Artist. I know in my core it is who I am, who I always have been, and who I will be in my future. I made a decision that I will not longer let fear hold me back and stop me from being who I want to be.
Lets back it up a bit though. At this point I have been unable to work for the last 2+ years due to the aforementioned crazy factors, but around 18 months ago I started making art again. I started with my go-to acrylic painting, and over time branched out into multiple mediums including polymer clay sculpting, needle felting, greeting cards and jewelry making just to name a few. I made a whole bunch of stuff. Initially it was just for fun and as a way to fill my days, but eventually I was encouraged to do some markets and when I started making actual money from things I had made with my own two hands, I was hooked. I was hooked and convinced that I never wanted to go back to corporate life again. That is not who am. This is who I am. I am Sarah Campbell, aka Sass Curry, aka Sass Lyttle Artistry.
I am an Artist, damn it.
“But you don’t need a degree for that, so why go to school” I hear you asking. Well, I wasn’t going to. Art school was always a ‘nice-to-have’, not a ‘must-have’. I was already making money doing what I was doing, so why bother right? Well, the answer my friends is that actually, I don’t want to be an Outsider Artist. I just want to be an Artist. But if you don’t go to school, then it turns out you will always be an outsider artist. Untrained, unrefined and unknown, right?
Well no, I don’t actually believe that. But finding out what an outsider artist actually is, and then having some insight into what art school actually teaches you, convinced me it was the right move for me. That I could learn a whole lot that would help me make an actual career out of this passion. I’m already a female artist, why make things harder on myself by adding Outsider to that.
You can read more about that outsider artist epiphany here, but for now, here I am. Doing the first year of my Bachelors Degree in Arts and Media at NMIT, and so far falling absolutely in love with it! This blog is intended to be a space I can document my journey at NMIT while also asking other people about their own Art School journeys. Please feel free to drop me a line and let me know your own story.